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Celebrating a Milestone

I know you’re used to me writing about blogging, writing, and productivity, but today’s post is going to be a bit different from my other posts. Today’s post is a personal post: it’s about me.

(Don’t worry, I’m not about to launch into a long, boring composition about myself or my favourite colour.)

Sooo last Saturday was my matriculation ceremony, but I didn’t want to attend. And I wouldn’t have if a friend hadn’t literally dragged me down there. I didn’t want to attend my ceremony because I wasn’t happy about it. Unlike most of my course mates, I didn’t see my matriculation as an achievement.

Another reason I didn’t want to attend the ceremony was because there was nobody coming to join in the “celebration”. My parents couldn’t come because of the distance between our house and my school. And my friends — well, I’m still terrible at socialising with people so I don’t really have friends in my department.

You’re probably wondering why I wasn’t happy to attend my ceremony. Well, it’s because I’m not studying what I want to study, and I’m still not happy about it. You see, I’m studying biochemistry, whereas all I’ve ever wanted to study is English Literature. Over the years, I’ve been very bitter about this misfortune. Although this wouldn’t surprise you if you read that post I wrote about giving up your dreams just to please your parents.

I’ve written several other posts on this blog and on Facebook that talk about people who are studying something different from what they had originally planned to study simply because their parents want them to. But at some point, I got tired of writing and talking about it. I still felt bitter about it, though, but I just thought it was useless to cry over spilt milk.

Anyway, some days ago, I was feeling sad about life again, so I told a few of my friends about how I’m feeling. Lucky for me, a friend who attends my school asked me to meet him yesterday. When we met, I poured out my heart to him; I told him about my feelings towards school and how I’m angry most of the time because I’m still yet to accept reality. “Reality” here means the fact that I’m going to be doing chemistry, my least favourite subject, for four years and possibly even for the rest of my life.

We talked for a long, long time, and I know this might sound cliché, but our conversation totally changed my mindset. Our conversation reminded me of the challenges I’ve faced in the past, and remembering my past somehow assured me of a bright future.

I was forced to remember that time in 2014 when I was asked to repeat a class simply because I failed maths and physics woefully. Four years later, I found myself teaching maths and physics at a secondary school. I also remembered how I felt ashamed to watch my classmates progress to the next class that year while I stayed behind and joined my juniors to go through that class again. I remember that it was this sad feeling that motivated me to become better. And I became so much better than I thought I could ever be.

I felt like a big coward yesterday; I felt like some stupid crybaby. Back then, when people told me, “You would never amount to anything”, or “You would repeat this class again”, or “You would never score higher than 30/100 in math”, I laughed, and then I worked too hard and read day and night just to make sure I proved them wrong in the end — and I sure as hell did!

But now, when people tell me, “You won’t last long studying biochemistry”, I ask myself questions like, “What if they’re right?”, “What if I’m not cut out for this thing?”, “What if I drop out now and save my parents’ money, instead of failing later on and bringing shame to them?”

I miss the old me — that guy who didn’t care about what people said about him. That guy who knew that while he couldn’t change what people said about him, he could decide how he reacted to it. Honestly, I miss him so much, and I hope I learn to become him once again.

I am grateful for the kind of friends I have, and I’m grateful for that very friend who reminded me that what I’m facing now isn’t any different from the challenges I’ve faced countless times in the past. Perhaps that was all I needed — a reminder.

LOL

I’m hesitant to publish this post; I feel like posting it is a bad idea, but I also feel like somebody who can relate to my experience might read this and feel motivated a bit. So I’ll just publish it here instead of hiding it away in my journal.

If you read up till this point, this is me thanking you for reading, but this is also me apologising for ranting and wasting your time. But sometimes, ranting helps you let off some steam, you know?

All right. So, erm, below are some of the pictures I took last Saturday during my matriculation ceremony. Okay, I know I’m quite short for my age, and I know I suck at posing for pictures, so please do me a favour — don’t remind me. 😂


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61 thoughts on “Celebrating a Milestone”

  1. Seems like I’m the first to bump into this. First of all, congratulations on your matric, whether you’re happy about it or not. I understand how you feel. I’ve always wanted to study law since I was 4 but ended up with Public Administration. Everyone knows school is a scam anyway. You can make another way for yourself in life if you decide chemistry isn’t for you.

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  2. Congratulations! I’m sorry your graduating in something that your not passionate about. However, it seems like this situation has pushed you in ways that you might not have been pushed otherwise. Who knows maybe you’ll find a way to combine biochemistry with your love of writing. I mean the big bang theory was a show about a bunch of physicists and they talked about real physics content mixed with humor. One of the best shows ever! Lol you just never know where life will lead you.

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    1. Thanks a bunch, EJ! I’ve accepted that everything in life happens for a reason. At first, we usually don’t get why they happen, but later on, things start to fall in place and everything starts to make sense. I want to believe that life has its reason for making me follow this path. I just hope all I learn from biochemistry doesn’t end up in vain later on

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  3. Regardless of the study, I believe education never is wasted. It rounds you out as a person and adds dimension that allow you to open the next door with greater confidence. When you stop worrying about silly things like your height and start counting your blessings and using your gifts, you’ll find the happiness that seems to elude you now. 🤗👍🏽❤️

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    1. Haha! Your last sentence made me grin so much that I started laughing hysterically! 😂
      But you’re absolutely right! I also believe that no knowledge is ever lost or wasted. Once you have it, it would always become useful later in future, whether or not you believe it. Thank you so much for being ever so wise, Jan! ❤

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            1. As much as I hate (fear!) to admit it, you’re absolutely right. The only way to find out if she feels the same is to find out.
              It’s not really wise to jump into conclusions. I’d just die out of frustration trying to figure her out.

              I’ll muster some courage and ask her.
              Thanks, Goldie, for the confidence boost!

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  4. Congrats on your graduation! Perhaps you can still pursue the degree you want. I’ve always wanted to be something in the medical field. I pursued nursing first and 10 years later pursued business. I’m not suggesting you wait that long. I had to due to health issues. As you pursue a career in the money maker career your parents wanted for you, take classes online or at night to pursue the degree you want. Soon you’ll be teaching English as a Professor where you learned to be a biochemist. Sometimes the bigger picture doesn’t have to exclude your dreams. Just shuffle them around a bit. I think you’ll end up thanking your parents for the degree that enabled you to have a good job while you pursue YOUR dreams❤

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    1. I do that a lot. I take classes online at night; it’s like my consolation for not pursuing the degree of my choice. 😊
      And I’m enjoying the experience of learning English online AND doing biochemistry offline. I’ve learnt so much from both degrees.
      Maybe you’re right. Maybe, in the end, I’ll put my biochemistry degree to good use 😊
      Thank you so much for the words of encouragement! ❤

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  5. Congratulations on your achievement Obi. Though it may not be what you want, it is still an achievement nonetheless. I’m happy for you. I appreciate the vulnerability. And I’m hopeful that someday you’ll find that guy that doesn’t care much what others have to say or welcome self doubt in. Cheers to you! 🎉🎊👨‍🎓

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  6. I can totally relate to this. Right now, I’m not sure l know what I want to study. I’m studying medicine and surgery and everyday, it feels like am going to fail. But everyday,l try to take it one day at a time and I suggest you do that too. Goodluck though.

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    1. That’s the plan now — taking things one day at a time. At first, I thought rushing into it would help things, but it only made things worse. It wasn’t until I stopped and planned a strategy (for studying, time management, and everything inbetween) that I started getting the hang of it.

      What (or who) made you opt for medicine? Was it your parents, too?

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  7. 1. CongratZ.
    2. Were you on TV? Or is it just the videographer’s/ photographer’s logo?
    3. The pictures are pretty cool.
    4. I completely understand your apprehension towards posting something like that. But in the end, I figure that this is your blog. Let us know how you feel. Hopefully, your readers are here for you and not for fakeness.
    5. It’s good to hear that your friends empowered you. Keep it going.
    6. Things might not be making sense now, but they WILL at some point. We just don’t know until it happens.
    7. School can seem pretty useless, but I think there’s always a lot of benefits to it. One way or another.

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    1. Thanks a bunch, Goldie!

      It’s just the photographer’s logo 😂 I’m still not ready to be on the big screen.
      Thank you for #4. Makes me feel a whole lot better.
      I can’t wait for things to start making sense. It would be so much relieving to finally have a sense of direction.
      I agree… School has a lot of benefits AND opportunities. All of which I hope to enjoy during my stay here. 😊

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  8. Congratulations, Obinna.

    I understand your predicament. It’s compared to falling in love with someone you can’t have because of what people would say.

    In spite of the course, I believe you can still be a success in that field. Study hard, my dear. In bio chemistry, you’ll find inspirations that’ll add colour to your writings in years to come.

    You’ll be fine. And thanks for publishing this post.

    I’m even considering publishing my recent love story. 🙂

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    1. Thank you plenty, Faith!

      Your analogy is so beautiful and accurate, honestly. I’ve never even thought of it that way.

      I too believe that if I set my mind to it, I can do it. I like inspiring myself with Arnold Palmer’s quote: “The most rewarding things in life are often the ones that look like they cannot be done.” 😊

      Thank you so much for reading. I anticipate your love story!

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  9. What a heart-warming post! Even though you may not be studying what you want doesn’t mean it won’t happen. You write beautifully and I can see your calling shining through. Working hard in everything you do builds character, I believe you will do great things!

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  10. Firstly, look at you! Just look at you, Obinna, you look great, and dare I say happy in your pictures.

    Secondly, congratulations on your achievements. You should be proud.

    Thirdly, I, too, did not study what I wanted to in College. I wanted to be a journalist/writer. I was not accepted into University to study journalism but to pursue a Bachelor of Arts degree in History instead. I went ahead and did it anyway, just because…After I graduated cum laude with my History degree my parents encouraged me to apply to Law School, my father even said he would pay for it. I didn’t want to study Law but what was I going to do with my History degree? So I went for it. I graduated with my Juris Doctor 4 years later and I have to say I have no regrets.

    I still get to write a lot (drafting of pleadings) and tell stories in the Courtroom and that’s how my journalistic skills come into play…Plus now I have my blog….As far as I’m concerned I am now a good storyteller and a writer, who also happens to be a helluva lawyer. I am so glad I listened to my parents. It’s not about the path that you take to get there but the fact that you get there. Congratulations, again, on matriculating.

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    1. Ah, you’d make a black guy blush, Racquel! 🙈

      That line, “It’s not about the path that you take to get there but the fact that you get there.” It struck a chord with me. You’re absolutely right, and your story is truly inspiring. So much inspiring because I feel it’s VERY similar to mine.

      To be honest, since I started blogging, I haven’t really been bitter about not studying English Literature. It’s almost like blogging and writing stories makes up for it; it’s almost like they’re my consolation for not studying what I’d wanted to study.

      I can only hope I become great in my field of study just as you are! I admire how you adapted to the situation. Life gave you lemons, and you made lemonade with them. So motivating.

      Thank you so much for the encouragement, Racquel! I’ve already resolved to be the best in my department, whether the devil and my inner critic like it or not. 😁

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  11. Graduation is a big event in life and I think no one should really miss it. One day you will look back and reflect on it and I believe you will be glad that you were dragged there 🙂 Life is a funny thing. It has its own ways and most of the times it does not turn out how we picture it and that might be a good thing actually. Also remember, that you have studied a certain subject and there are plenty of different job opportunities within that field. And if you later find out that you do not like it, do not be afraid to diversify. Many people do that.

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    1. I’m happy my friend convinced me to attend the ceremony. It would have been sad to want to reflect on happy memories that I didn’t make just because I was feeling angry.
      And you’re right about how twisted life is. It doesn’t always give us what we want, but sometimes, what it gives us is so much better than what we want. We usually don’t realise this at first, though. But we realise it eventually.

      If it comes down to diversifying, I won’t be afraid to do it. Thank you, Anna, for your helpful advice! Thank you so much.

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  12. Congratulations on meeting a milestone, Obinna! I’m sad that you don’t have the freedom to study what you want in school, but I’m happy to see all these encouraging comments from readers who support your writing! You never know what the future holds; you could take English classes later in life when you are financially independent. 🙂

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    1. I’m blessed with the most supportive readers. 😊
      Words aren’t enough to thank you all for your immense support and words of encouragement. I believe the future holds great things in store for me. The future is bright. 😊

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  13. Mr. Obinna, I’d like to say the biggest Congratulations to you with the warmest hug I can muster on your great achievement over the weekend. Your Matriculation. Rest assured, I am celebrating with you.
    The bold guy you are looking for, I am starring at. Your posts speaks huge volumes regarding your boldness, so worry no further.
    Regarding the choice of course you are studying, always remember that for the good guys, there’s a good reason for everything that comes their way in life. As you get older, you will realize this fact, so do not despair for a moment. You never know the flavor your current course will add to your incredible personality.
    Keep the Faith Bro, you are on a sure navigation to success!
    I will follow your blog from now on, as an encouragement in honor of your matriculation.

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    1. If I had a weekly award I give to the best comments on my blog, you’d be the winner for this week. Thank you for all the support, words of encouragement, and the kind words too. I so much appreciate them. 😊
      And thanks for the follow!

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    1. Thank you SO MUCH, Coffee. I’m sorry I’m replying just now, buddy. You see, I’m on a break from blogging. I’m only visiting my blog now cuz I miss it so much. I’m sorry for leaving your comment hanging there.
      How have you been? How’s blogging going for you?

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  14. I know this is coming late but I just discovered your blog so. . .
    I know how you’re feeling because I’ve in a similar situation before. I wasn’t really excited for my matric as well but the day turned out fine because I had friends to celebrate with. I hope you’re doing better now.
    PS: When I spotted the purple matric gown, I just knew that you’re attending the same school as I am. I really hope to meet you one day.

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    1. First off, thank you plenty, Happiness. And I’m sorry for the late reply. 😊

      Thank you for reading and for understanding the situation I’ve found myself in. I’m hopeful that I’ll scale through this phase unscathed.

      Ah, you also attend Uniben? How lovely!

      Are you looking forward to this new semester?

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    1. Thank you, Tanusri! It’s hard to picture myself falling in love with this subject someday, but since everyone thinks it’s very possible, I’ll do everything in my power to make it a reality.

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